I'm sorry...

Babygirl,
I'm so sorry.
I don't know how I did it.
How did I forget your birthday.
You mean the world to me,
nothing less.

I feel like I let you down.
Feel like such a fukk up.
Girl, I would give anything to have you back.
Have you whole again.

You are an inspiration to so many people.
Even myself.
You've been strong through the hardest times imaginable.

I'll be there on the 4th babygirl.
I wouldn't miss it for the world.

ILY SDS.

its the way that you talk, that you laugh, that you smile.

I failed.
I know that I can always try again.

I feel like a part of me was taken on Sunday.
I feel like he'll never forgive me for it.

It wasn't my fault you know.
I really had no control over that situation...

or did I?
I did drink-
I did take pills-
did that effect it?
did it cause my failure?

take two: on the 7th. :/

maybe it's the...

fear of not knowing.
or the.
fear of knowing that I have to wait another week.
maybe it's.
not fear at all.

anticipation? -maybe.
excitement? -possibly.

in one week....
i will know for sure!